This new paradigm is very much like when you are mistaken for royalty–and you are very special for a while to people, and you begin to believe you are indeed royalty…but then they figure out their mistake and cast you out…and everyone goes about their business, even though everyone still knows each other, its not the same, all the perceptions have changed…and you realize you never were what you believed you were.
Someone has finally made me understand that I’ve been chasing something that doesn’t exist. I’ve been chasing it for many years now. Its not easy giving up on a dream.
I’m here to tell you that when you find your soulmate, unless it is a RL thing, its not really a soulmate…it’s pretty damn close but no cigar.
Do I drift away or hang on to this lingering love of a lost dream?
It appears that no one else really gives a damn about the soul I put out there…
I am the outsider now. I put myself here. It seems like that is where the ones I care about want me from now on…conveniently accessible yet out of sight/out of mind.
